When not playing with the new TiVo or lamenting the cancellation of this week's fondue class, I have actually been doing a fairly significant amount of reflection. I've come to terms with my commitment issues that have plagued these past 2 years. And I'm starting to see that what I really want isn't a break or even the company of someone new - I miss being with my boyfriend. But it's as if my fear of "forever" has thus far blinded me to the fact that my relationship was everything that I wanted.
So do I still want the same thing? I'm not sure. For now I think I do. He has proven himself perfect for me in almost every imaginable way. But what if want something different in a year... or 2 or 20? Does everyone else go through this when they are embarking on a potential lifelong partnership? Is it normal to have this much self-doubt? And to what extent should I allow my emotional tumult affect those that I love most?
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